Life is

erratic that it is scary and beautiful at the same time. My last entry was I believe was titled "it's been a long time." I wrote that entry several months ago. I began this blog not only to write about what I am going through but also encourage those who are going through the same. I admit once I felt a sense of little relief I wanted to just live each day that I didn't feel anxiety without writing in this blog. I've prayed countless times for healing yet through this I am learning to pray when there is nothing wrong. I've gave thanks so many times when health was good and things were going great but I've learned to give thanks while going through the toughest times in my life. 2010 hands down has been my hardest year. Anxiety is something I can not run away from. It can only be defeated by standing my ground and facing it no matter how scary it is. It is scary. It keeps you frozen, feet nailed to the floor, and eyes fixated on the problems your mind creates. With this entry I am rededicating myself to this blog as well as God. I believe everyday I have to dedicate myself to God since each is different from the last.

"The Lord is my rock, my fortress, and my savior; my God is my rock, in whom I find protection. He is my shield, the power that saves me, and my place of safety" -Psalm 18:2